Side Projects and Goodbyes

Hi Blogland,

Today was a rough one for me. On top of being in a generally bad mood all day, my cat was euthanized. Though he hasn’t lived with me for over six years, he was my childhood cat. A black short-hair named Louis, after Anne Rice’s vampire. He was the runt of his litter, and I treated him like my baby. I taught him to eat hard food, and to use a litter box successfully. He slept with me, curled against my chest as a kitten, and later in life curled at my feet. He was vocal and demanding, loved the most ridiculous of people foods, and was generally weird, like most cats.

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My black cat, resting on an Edgar Allan Poe omnibus.

And today my mom decided that living through kidney disease, vomiting multiple times a day, was no life at all. I tend to agree with her. He was losing weight, fast, and though his personality was intact, he was sick frequently. I understand it, but it doesn’t make it any easier to think about.

But, it’s not just Louis. I’ve been pretty frustrated lately. Mostly with school. It’s boring. It’s not remotely challenging, and it is really disappointing to me that this is what upper level education looks like in America. That this is what’s keeping me from focusing on my writing.

It’s making me crazy.

So, to keep my sanity, I’ve taken part in a side project.

The Audient Void: A Journal of Weird Fiction and Dark Fantasy is a new magazine, started by a friend of a friend here in Salem. Thanks to our mutual friend, I’m now included in this awesome publication, mainly as an Editor.

And guess what? We’re currently accepting submissions! The submission period ends March 20th, and we’re looking to publish the first issue sometime in April.

Learn more about submission guidelines by visiting us on Facebook.

So, that’s awesome. So far, the poems and short stories that have come through my inbox are really quite impressive. I wasn’t aware Lovecraftian fiction and gothic poetry still had a viable presence among modern writers. It’s been quite the pleasant surprise!

So, you’ll probably be hearing about The Audient Void from time to time, as we work toward publishing issues.

Other upcoming topics of interest include:

  • Mistborn: Secret History book review
  • Continuing edits on Draft 2 of The Steel Armada
  • Preparation of Query Letter for The Steel Armada
  • School, especially next term’s Intro to Writing Sci-Fi class

So, keep a weather eye out for some writing projects in the near future!

See you soon, Blogland!

 

BZ

 

Relapse and New Beginnings

Blogland,

Sorry for the gap in posts. I’ve been a bad little writer. I’ve ignored my novel for a solid month. I didn’t finish it by today, and so in the spirit of being bad have extended my personal deadline to Christmas. I know… bad decision. But sometimes you have to shoot yourself in the foot a little.

In the interim I’ve focused on life here in Oregon. I’m making new friends and missing old ones. I’m enjoying a life that suddenly feels so more adult. So many milestones, most small and only important to me. Having my own car and medical insurance policies chief among them. It’s taken more out of me to adjust to life here than I’d originally anticipated. What I thought was life settling down, was really just my brain realizing that this is where I live. And after that came accepting it.

I’ve spent the last month or so being intermittently morose and euphoric. A pride and joy like I’ve never known has filled me with every wooded view and cool breeze, and yet, in the still of the night I imagine the dry warmth of Arizona evenings. A sheer layer of sweat covering my body in a way I may never know here. The embrace of desert crickets, so much more high-pitched in their cries than the wood dwelling one in the bush outside my apartment here. And stars… drive into the middle of nowhere in Arizona and I could point out constellations to you from muscle memory. But here the heavens are cockeyed and foreign. It’s the little things that tell me that I’m farther from home than I bargained for. And so, as often as I’m thrilled in learning this new land, I’m saddened at all I’ve left behind.

But enough of my griping. This is a blog about writing!

Today is the first of September, meaning that fall is just around the corner, and most schools are back in session. This means that Literary Journals and Magazines are opening their pages to new works! And this means that I need to get to editing and submitting stories! Which is exactly what I did today!

I have three stories I’m prepping for submissions. Wild Turkeys needs quite a bit more work before I’ll send it, but it will be ready before the month is out. You’ve Always Been Good at Crazy is nearly done, but a piece as short as that one, every word must be carefully considered, so it still needs more attention. And then there’s Fallen Star. Just a single line needs added and it’s ready to go. I’m not sure where I want to send this story, because I think it’s great… But I’m not sure I have the self-confidence to send it to any magazines I feel are “above” me.

Anyway, once these are all ready and out, I’ll get back to the novel. Because it’s not until the novel is done that I’ll let myself start writing anything new. But, I know which work is next in line! I’m really excited to try it out. It’s a great idea, but complicated in application. The story is paranormal in nature, and my friend December will be excited to know that this story is the next one I’ll be working on. She’s been waiting a couple years to see it finished.

Outside of the novel and this one story I have a novella/teen piece, a Fantasy trilogy, a teen novel, and another Fantasy series planned. Obviously this is several years’ worth of work, but at least I know where I’m headed!

If any of you readers are writers looking to submit this Fall, don’t forget to consider The Gila River Review! I’ll be posting about it, so keep an eye out for more info. And if you’d like more lists of journals and magazines, check out this website!

 

Anyways guys, thanks for reading, as always. I really do appreciate it.

 

BZ

Acceptance and Continued Work

Today was an intense and crazy day! Firstly, I turned in my first chapter to my novel writing class, which means it’s going up here, tonight!

But, as to why it was an intense day! While I was checking my email, I received notice from Rebecca Dyer of The Blue Guitar Magazine that they want to publish “Goodbye, Marla”! So, this fall my story will be published in their magazine! Check out their website here!

So, that’s incredibly exciting, and I can’t express my gratitude enough to the great staff over there!

But, without making this any longer than necessary, here’s this week’s Original Work!

Chapter 1

 

I moved to Seattle for a job. Not for a girl or an ailing family member, but a somewhat better paying job. Since my grandmother died I didn’t have a girl or family member to consider in my decision to move; I just packed up and left Southern Colorado behind.

When I landed in the SeaTac airport with my one carry on bag, a man waited for me. He stood drowning in a sea of travelers save for his sign that read, “Kevin Fox.”

I sighed. Why could no one add another x? Improper spelling aside, I knew it was meant for me.

“I’m Kevin Foxx,” I introduced myself to the man. He eyed my shaggy black hair and Soundgarden t-shirt, judging my worthiness of his services.

“I’m to take you to your new apartment.”

That surprised me, but after a minute I came to like the idea of being chauffeured. We waded through the bustling airport and out to the loading zone. The sun shined meekly through mercury clouds, the roads slick and glistening with the fresh Seattle drizzle.

The sound of a car door unlatching brought me back to attention. The driver, whose name remained unknown to me, ushered me into the backseat of the non-descript black sedan. I tossed my bag in ahead of me and slid into the car. I slipped a little more than planned on the posh leather upholstery. The driver watched me slide around, disdain quivering on his curled lip. So much for customer service.

The silent drive took ages. Traffic was at its worst, with stymied freeways and shifting express lanes.

“What’s your name?” I asked, leaning forward, in an attempt to kill time. He shot me a withering glare in the review mirror, then turned his eyes back to the road. “Ok, then,” I muttered after a moment of silence and fell back into my seat, the leather making awkward squishing noises.

At last, we arrived. The man parked and passed me a set of keys.

“Third floor, unit seventeen.”

“Thanks,” I said, grabbing my bag.

“If you have any questions you can call this number,” he mumbled, handing me a pricey looking business card. I felt like a member of the witness relocation program, or maybe the mob, not the newest employee of one of the nation’s leading marketing firms.

“Thanks,” I muttered.

Of course the elevator was down for maintenance, so I had to take the stairs. Grateful for my lack of worldly possessions I started my three-flight hike. Halfway up a girl of maybe eight came squealing down the stairwell. Not far behind her raced her older brother. Neither of them noticed me; the girl just missed bowling me over, the boy too frustrated to take his eyes off his sister.

Squished against the wall I shook my head as they passed by, and then continued my solitary ascent into a new life.

 

I turned the key in the lock of my new place. The heavy door glistened with fresh red paint. The luxurious apartment had an open floor plan. Every inch of the place felt new, moneyed, and empty.

I dropped my bag in the doorway and adventured through the place. The designer paint and finishings were top notch. I’m sure any HGTV fan would die for the place, but it was pretty much lost on me. Two bedrooms and a bathroom and a half later I perched myself on the kitchen counter. I swung my feet, letting the heels of my old Converse thunk against the solid wood cabinets. I scanned the apartment one more time, before I hopped down to the floor and picked up my duffel bag. I set it on the counter and began removed its contents; a couple pairs of jeans with band t-shirts and three Cosby style sweatshirts, a couple books, my laptop and a single picture frame. The rest of my stuff, mainly clothes, books, and family keepsakes would arrive tomorrow, most of it would stay in the boxes, crammed away in the second bedroom. My footfalls echoed off the wood floors and bounced off the picture windows in the living room, creating a symphony of loneliness as I walked out the door.

Back downstairs I exited the building and chose a random direction; time to get a bed and some dinner. On the lawn the two kids from the stairwell were playing Frisbee in the failing sunlight. As I strolled by the girl, her chocolate hair in a pony, she waved at me. Taken by surprise I gave a short wave back. Thrilled by my response she smiled big, revealing a missing tooth.

“Evie!” her brother yelled, snatching her excited hand down out of the sky. The boy looked at me, a scowl of distrust tinting his features. The girl pouted, giving her brother a heavy dose of silent treatment as I continued my foray into the city.

I spent the next two hours lost in Seattle’s bustling downtown. I managed to find a furniture shop that would deliver a bed with a frame that night. They’d have it to my place within an hour, giving me just enough time to find some food. Two blocks down from the furniture store I stumbled on a Chinese joint with a vibrant neon sign that read “Dim Sum”. The interior seemed shady, with florescent lights that flickered and cheap 1980s tables and chairs, but it smelled incredible. The aroma of sautéed onions and garlic sold me, so I ordered Kung Pao Chicken and a side of Egg Rolls with sweet and sour sauce. In a matter of minutes they made my food and I headed back out into the drizzle.

Three meandering blocks later I found my way back to the apartment. I took the stairs two at a time and halfway up heard the distinct sound of Styrofoam breaking. Seconds later I felt something wet and hot soak through my pant leg.

“Shit, shit, shit,” I cursed, bolting up the stairs, holding the bag of food as far from myself as possible. I heard a small giggle from down the hall, but ignored it, fighting to get the key in the lock. At last the key turned and the door swung open. I rushed inside just in time for the container of sweet and sour sauce to burst, staining the bottom of the plastic bag bright orange. In seconds the delicious liquid saturated the bag and proceeded to drip onto my shiny new wood floors. Pissed, I threw the bag onto the kitchen counter, where the sauce pooled. Before I could go into a food-deprived rage my intercom buzzed.

“Yeah?” I asked, mashing the button to communicate downstairs.

“Foxx?” A deep voice asked. I assured him I was indeed Kevin Foxx. “We got your bed here.” I grumbled to myself a minute, my eyes shut tight, and then told him I’d be right down.

I helped the guys get the bed up the stairs and then spent another two aggravating hours putting it together while picking at the remnants of my dinner. I only had the remedial tool kit that came with the bed set. You’d think, what with advances in technology, they could make a self-assembling bed frame.

I stood above the finished product, proud of my handiwork, and eager to lie down. I wrestled with the queen size mattress and got it onto the box spring that now rested in the frame. I admired the pillow top mattress for a moment and then realized I’d forgotten to buy sheets. It was past midnight, and I refused to leave the apartment again, so I slept on the bare mattress that night.

Bright and early I awoke to a loud pounding at my front door. I looked at my watch and groaned; only seven in the morning! I slid on the same clothes from the day before, which reeked of Chinese food, and answered the door. The movers had arrived, so I let them in and told them to put everything in the guest bedroom.

I watched the box parade while I made a long list of every day essentials I would need, sheets and laundry detergent at the top of the page. My first Saturday in Seattle would be a pricey one, I decided scanning the list. I looked up to see a muscled man carrying a box labeled “Mom and Dad” in my lousy handwriting. I rushed to take it from him.

“I’ll take this one,” I told him, pulling the box from his grip. I stormed into the master bedroom, closing the door behind me, and tore through the tape. I pulled open the box with care, checking on the fragile urns inside. They were both wedged tight, the way I’d left them, between packing peanuts and bubble wrap; a matching maroon pair. The gold trimmed lids and bases glimmered in the sunlight streaming from the window, as if happy to see daylight again. I swallowed hard, satisfied that the urns were unharmed, and then closed the box and set it on the highest shelf of my walk-in closet.

After the movers left I changed clothes and decided to get lost in the city. I wandered through Pike’s Place Market where I got a coffee at the original Starbucks, before I walked down several blocks past the aquarium and various shops. I ate a fish burger at the 5 Point Café, just across the street from the Experience Music Project, the sun shining off the building’s distinctive metallic exterior.

I headed back home, full and enjoying the city. I was halfway up the sidewalk leading into the building, about to turn a corner, when someone small ran headlong into my knees. The bright sun made the girl squint as she peered up at me. It took me a moment to realize that only one of her eyes could squint. Her left eye, swollen almost shut, had turned a deep purple under a scabbed brow where a cut was healing. Her uneven bangs fell just above her eyes, the rest of her hair in the signature ponytail. She looked terrified for a moment, and then backed away from me dropping her gaze.

“I’m sorry,” she stuttered as she looked away and shrunk into herself.

“Be more careful next time,” I told her, straightening my now rumpled clothes.

“Yes, sir,” she nodded, still not looking at me.

“How’d you get that shiner?” I stood, my 6’2 frame towering above her eight-year-old height, looking down at her, my face stern.

“My brother pushed me down the stairs,” she said after a moment of silence. She continued to avoid my gaze.

“Really.” I didn’t believe a word of it. She looked up at me, gauging my reaction, and then looked away again. When she started fidgeting from foot to foot I knew she wouldn’t be standing there long.

“Evie!” A voice rang out, breaking our silence. Her brother, a boy of about twelve, ran up to us, “what did I tell you about talking to strangers?” His voice squeaked in his concern and he put his hands on her shoulders protectively before looking up at me, “I’m sorry if Evie was bugging you, Mister.”

I considered the boy, “are you the brother that gave her the black eye?”

“What?” Confusion crossed his face. He looked at his sister and stammered, “yeah, but it was an accident.”

“I’m sure,” I told him. I didn’t believe him either. I said nothing more, watching the boy tug his sister around the corner. Before they made it out of sight Evie turned and waved back at me, a sad mixture of hope and pain on her face.

 

 

 

 

Submissions and Screenplays

I’ve been sitting in the Starbucks on Geenfield and the 60 for about two and a half hours, working solely on “Goodbye, Marla”. After all this work and editing, I nearly got a case of cold feet. My nervousness almost kept me from submitting the story to a few online magazines that are currently accepting submissions. But, I talked myself back into it, and three copies of “Marla” have traveled the vast expanse of the internet to find the inboxes of three magazine Editors!

So, if you follow College Lit Mags (I know, I don’t either) you will hopefully see my story in The Gila River Review, The Blue Guitar Magazine, and The Porter Gulch Review in the coming year!

Now, down to business! It is Original Work time! A small preface before I let you get at the screenplay. This story is my first foray into the world of Fantasy, and takes place in a world entirely of my creation. None of that is evident in the small scene I’ll be posting here, but it will help you with the town names and character names. I do intend to novelize these characters, and have the entire plot outlined in my mind. It’s just that, with my other novel taking precedence, Jordinn’s story has fallen by the wayside.

Also, remember that screenplay format is ridiculous and not really designed to be a pleasurable read. Also, WordPress doesn’t want to play nice, so forgive the awkward formatting here.

Anyway, enough chit chat on my part- Enjoy!

EXT. DIRT PATH LEADING INTO A SMALL VILLAGE- DAY

JORDINN, a tall man, thin and scruffy, wanders into

town. All the windows and doors on the thatched huts

are closed. There are no people save for one man

standing in the middle of the street. Tall, bald, and

menacing, the man carries a flail.

JORDINN notices movement in the dilapidated houses. The

people are watching. JORDINN raises his hands in peace.

JORDINN

I mean no your village no harm.

He looks around the town.

 JORDINN (CONT’D)

I am a traveler from the City

seeking to aid the nation’s ailing

villages.

The villagers start murmuring at once.

BALD MAN

The City sent you?

JORDINN

No. The City is too foolish to see

its borders and its people are

crumbling.

JORDINN pauses, looking at a woman and her child

peeking through a window.

JORDINN (CONT’D)

Or it is too arrogant to care.

Villagers open their doors, stepping onto their

porches. Most nod in agreement with JORDINN’s words.

Except the BALD MAN.

BALD MAN

We have heard news of villages

being pillaged.

He glares at JORDINN, teeth bared.

JORDINN

You expect me to attack your entire

village single-handedly?

JORDINN smiled.

JORDINN (CONT’D)

I’m good, but not THAT good, my

friend.

BALD MAN

And if you’re a scout?

JORDINN

We can stand all night in the street

if you’d like, but I promise you, no

bandits follow me.

OLD MAN (OC)

ULNAAR!

An OLD MAN with a pronounced limp steps out onto the street, addressing the

BALD MAN.

OLD MAN (CONT’D)

This lad seems honest enough.

He turns to JORDINN, smiling.

OLD MAN (CONT’D

What’s your name boy?

JORDINN

Jordinn.

JORDINN eases his hands back to his sides turning

to the OLD MAN.

OLD MAN

I am MATHIAS, this brute is ULNAAR.

MATHIAS smiled, welcoming JORDINN to the town.

MATHIAS

Let’s have a drink!

JORDINN follows MATHIAS, as ULNAAR falls in behind him,

still glaring.

INT. TAVERN- DAY

The three men sit at a round table, as MATHIAS orders

drinks. ULNAAR continues to look unhappy.

MATHIAS

You said you’re helping the

villages?

JORDINN

I’ve spent the last five years

traveling Courdelon, helping in

any way I can.

JORDINN sips his pint of ale. MATHIAS has a foam

mustache from his gulp of ale, while ULNAAR has yet to

drink.

MATHIAS

What villages have seen your help?

JORDINN

Many. Falroth, Irmire, and

Erlebrook were the most recent

towns I visited.

ULNAAR jumps up, spilling his tankard.

ULNAAR

Erlebrook was hit two days ago, and

Irmire the last full moon!

JORDINN

What?

JORDINN looks at each man in turn, confused.

JORDINN (CONT’D)

I stayed over an entire Cycle in

Erlebrook tending their crops. I only left

a fortnight ago!

ULNAAR turns to MATHIAS.

ULNAAR

This man brings trouble! Two of the towns he

“helped” have been ravaged!

JORDINN

Ravaged? Were there any survivors?

MATHIAS

Two women with their children, and

several orphans they found along the

way.

MATHIAS frowns into his tankard. JORDINN holds his head

in his hands for a moment, before rummaging through his

pack. He withdraws a withered yellow parchment and

unrolls it on the table.

In shaky letters town names are written, and cities

drawn. It is JORDINN’s personal map of the nation.

The men spend a half hour discussing what villages were

hit when. JORDINN marks the trail of the pillagers.

JORDINN

They’re going to hit Draden next.

ULNAAR

That’s only a day’s ride from here!

JORDINN looks at ULNAAR, then back at MATHIAS.

JORDINN

Will your men ride with me to

evacuate Draden?

MATHIAS laughs.

MATHIAS

Men? What men? This is a small

village of farmers. We have more

livestock than we do men!

ULNAAR

I will ride with you.

JORDINN turns to ULNAAR, shocked.

JORDINN

All right. Gather as many men as

you can, and your best horses. We

leave immediately.

MATHIAS sat, flabbergasted, as ULNAAR and JORDINN left

to prepare for their rescue of Draden.