Update (Wee-Hours Edition)

For those of you who don’t know, migraines suck butts. It’s been a while since I’ve had one be this disruptive. At the moment I’m relatively pain-free thanks to a cocktail of meds, but the brain fog, temperature regulation issues, and the inability to fall (back) asleep still remain. Hence this 4am writing sesh.

I’m restless. Hot and cold in turns and ever-so-slightly nauseous. My brain can’t stop thinking about anything and everything, and I know only one cure for that: writing.

But what to write about? I haven’t really been doing any creative writing lately. That part of my brain just hasn’t functioned quite right since the pandemic hit. I wrote a bunch of stuff in November, but on closer inspection I hate it all. Not sure if that’s an accurate reflection of the work or of my mental state. Probably a solid mix of the two.  Last month I started work on a flash fiction piece that’s been hiding out in my brain since 2018. I like it so far, but haven’t been back to write the ending. I also started writing some more fanfic here and there, but again, nothing seems to stick. 

The will is there, which would suggest there’s a way, and yet… I can’t seem to find it.

I’m hoping all the good things happening in my day-to-day life will fill up the writing reservoir in time for the Fall. What good things you ask? Well, I’ve been on four hikes already this season! Oregon spring is a great time to get back outdoors, even if the weather is unpredictable af. Two coastal hikes and two forest hikes have left me feeling more inspired than I have in a long time. Nature is always soothing and restorative for me. I don’t know how I lived so long without these hikes.

I also (FINALLY!!!) got a new car! After years of research we bought a 2021 Subaru Crosstrek Sport. His name is Pluto and he is like a child to me. I am obsessed, and because I didn’t want to flood my friends’ newsfeeds with my car obsession, I created an Instagram account… for the car. Yes, I have become that person. If you would like to follow that particular journey, follow @pluto.trek on Instagram. It’s mostly car pics, mods, and outdoors adventures.

The podcast continues, and gets more listens each month. That doesn’t seem real or right, but hey, man — you do you. I kid, but it is very surreal that monthly recordings of me and my friends shooting the literary shit is something other human beings want to spend their time listening to. And it isn’t just people we know! There are strangers! WHAT?! Wild, I tell you. 

I’m fully vaccinated! And Trevor gets his second dose this week! That’s such a huge relief – a step in the right direction on this trudge back to “normal”. Now if only we could get all the mouth-breathers to get it too. But that’s a rant for a different post. 

Thanks to that vaccination status, my summer is booking up fast. We’re going on a road trip in the new car in June. We’re visiting my aunts in Boise — we’ve never been and they seem to absolutely love it! My aunts are also hikers so I’m excited to hike some high desert, visit new breweries and wineries, and spend time with my awesome relatives. 

After that (literally four days later) I’m getting swooped up by my father and the fam-bam on a road trip to visit my uncle in Seattle. It’s a two week trip with plans for 4th of July, crabbing, and whale watching. I cannot imagine a better vacation for me after this past year. Seattle is my favorite place in the world – I would live there in a heartbeat if I could only afford it. I visited the city for the first time when I was seven, and on the flight home I told my dad I would live there someday. I still think that’s true, but if not, at least I still landed in the PNW.

Work is going well. I never like to get into too much detail about the job, but kids are (mostly) back and despite my personal reservations, I have to admit it is much much better having them there. I think I’d started to lose sight of my job a little bit. It’s so nice to feel useful again.

So, yeah. That’s a little glimpse into what’s been going on. As ever, I’m sorry for the inactivity here. But, this is primarily a writing blog. I haven’t been writing. It’s hard to blog about something that just isn’t happening for me right now. If you keep a close eye, I am updating the reading page though! I’m still here, lurking on my own site. As soon as I have anything worth while to mention, I will. Pinky promise.

Until next time, Bloggarts.

BZ

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